Infertility is a big part of my life. It's one that's been easier to push to the back of my mind with the arrival of baby Z, but that is still a constant nonetheless. I used to resent our infertility, and sometimes even God for thinking I could handle such a 'hard challenge'. But while I don't necessarily love infertility now and there are still times I sit in the bathroom and cry for a few minutes (usually around THAT time of the month) I have embraced it. I'm grateful for it. Why would I be grateful for it? Because it brought me my son. I know that baby Z is supposed to be in our family, he's the sunshine in our life and such a miracle. Every day I thank Heavenly Father for bringing him into our lives, so how can I deny his means of doing that? I would take infertility any day if it meant having him, because he was worth the wait, he was worth the tears, sadness, everything!! Not only am I grateful for little Z, but I'm thankful to Heavenly Father for bringing 'T' into our lives! We love her! She's beautiful, courageous, and my life is better for knowing her! We LOVE open adoption, and since infertility was the way that the adoption option came into our lives, while I still long physically bear children, I am okay with our infertility.

I'm so thankful that God's plan was better than my own because I would have missed so much if things had gone 'my way'!

If you or someone you know is considering placing a baby for adoption I hope that you'll consider the couples on the left sidebar...maybe you'll be part of their adoption miracle!